I wanted to loosen up in my work.
I wanted a daily practice.
I wanted to get to the next level in my painting.
I didn’t expect everyday to be the Mona Lisa, but I wouldn’t quit when it got hard or frustrating.
I expected to have failed paintings.
I don’t know if today is a failure – but I do know it doesn’t match my vision for it, or even what I saw the sketch as.
It is not the Mona Lisa.
So here is what I choose to do about that. I’ve closed the door on this painting. I am not going to nit pick on this piece anymore. In evaluation I would say that I did as much as I could with it today, but I’ve realized that my vision wasn’t really clear on this painting. I hadn’t decided whether to paint it in a highly impressionistic style or paint it in my own version of realism. Because I didn’t make a clear choice I feel like I ended up somewhere in the middle.
The canvas may have been too small – this idea might work on a large scale better than it did on a 6×6 inch piece of claybord. A larger canvas would allow for more expressive brushwork than this little piece and I think the brush work would be critical to carrying this piece.
I was conflicted about posting this piece. Who talks about their failures? Who talks about the things that just fell flat or didn’t work out as planned? But if I expected failed paintings how could I not show the work? I couldn’t just sweep the efforts I made under the rug and pretend they didn’t happen. So here is the honesty. I’m disappointed – less than impressed, shall we say.
But I’ve evaluated. I will learn from this and paint tomorrow.
What do you do with your failures?